Rama Moondra

It was unusual of Bernie, my friend from London days to call up at middle of night. “A muffed voice was on the other side.” Our Nick is no more. We lost him in air jump”…I just could not figure out what it meant. I had lost my precious, now ex, boss a day before to destiny and  just twenty four hours.

“You are drunk. It can’t be our Nick.” But by that time my heart had lost its beat and faith .Nick is no more. Sitting quiet, my memories did not leave my heart alone. Nick named me “Marble Princess.”  My first scuba dive had left a major cut on my feet and bleeding through it, I continued my swim. Some who does not cry was marble according to him.

 Nick was my adventure sports coach and became a great pal after that. I would just keep pulling his legs for having new girlfriend every time. “A man’s heart is too big for one woman alone.” He would laugh out. My trips to Europe were incomplete without meeting him. We travelled miles at times to be at a common place just for a few hours, share our sides of world and wine.

Little did I know when I met him recently, I would never see him again. Life gives us rudest shocks. Just when you feel, you have all your priceless possessions of friends and loved ones in place, they go away. Without giving a chance at times to express, to celebrate, to regret, to clarify. All that is left, unsaid stories and expressions with a sense of void which can’t be filled. Remorse untold.

 Human beings are irreplaceable and so are some relations. They are just too special. How I wish, I could recreate some part of my life and ask some people to stay back at any cost.

Right now, when I am physically down with high fever and painful foot, Nick’s first coaching comes to hold my hand, “The intensity of pain is decided by your reaction to it. Make friends with pain. That’s only truth we live with.”

Nick, I will live with your loss and my other friends too. I have made friends with it.

On my knees, in front of god almighty, with tears in my prayers I bid goodbye to departed ones. After a long time, these words are dedicated to my ex boss and Nick. Two people, whose memories are now part of my internal and spiritual wealth,

May peace prevails.